What If There’s Beauty on the Other Side of Your Pain?

” I do not want to live anymore. I do not wish to be here. I cant do this. It injures too much. Its too hard.”

As a human, a warm wave of compassion takes control of as I probe for what this particular soul requirements.

“The important thing is not to stop questioning. Curiosity has its own reason for existing.” ~ Albert Einstein

Being the child of a parent who dedicated suicide, there is a familiar inner fear that washes over me when I hear these words. An active awareness and tuning in, knowing its time to roll up my sleeves.

Im curious how numerous times Ive heard these words over my life time. The words the very same, the heaviness no various from one to the next.

As a psychotherapist, there is a list that goes through my head to make sure I ask all of the best questions as I examine the level of pain they are experiencing.

How will you feel? What will feel different when youre dead versus how you feel right now?”

I get that. All of us have those minutes.

The responses differ from “It will be dark and nothingness, no sensation, no presence” to “Ill be in paradise and done with this,” but generally they say, “I dont understand.”

I often question, “Well, if you dont understand how can you ensure it will be much better than this? What if its even worse? What if you have to relive everything again? What if you are stuck in a dark void and cant get out?”

More times than not they have not believed this through. They are not thinking about what is next, mainly since what they are truly saying is “I do not desire to feel like this anymore.”

Then I dig in more:

” How do you know your miracle is not around the corner? How do you know relief will not come tomorrow if you allow the chance for one more day? What would it resemble to be curious about whats next instead of assuming it will all be simply as unpleasant?

Given that you have not constantly felt like this, is it possible you may one day once again feel happiness and liberty?

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In the minutes of hardship, what would it be like to enable for interest? To not only acknowledge the feeling in front of us– and feel it– however to likewise enable the possibility of what is to come.

Throughout these conversations, my own curiosity resurfaces. I wonder if another medication would have assisted her.

All of our experiences feature the free will to pick how we will react to them. With openness and wonder or dismissal and resistance. Its also alright to feel everything at the same time. The feelings will pass. They always do.

And the more we utilize this faith and our practices that support us, the quicker we have the ability to return to the peace that lies below.

The reality is, we do not understand what will occur next, however we understand we have made it this far. How do we understand tomorrow wont be exactly what weve been waiting for?

If you look at your past, youll see you have had low moments and many worries. Did they remain the same or did they alter? The majority of your worries did not become, and if they did, you endured them– you made it through. You might have even found out something or reinforced your ability to be brave.

I likewise think that the human experience is filled with battle and hardship and challenge. I do not think we are leaving it. I think we are equipped with the power to lean in to our pain to let it move through us. To utilize our experiences as our strength and our knowledge for the next wave of frustration.

The kind of whole that we feel when weve done something we feel proud of and we reconnect to the love we are made of. The way we feel when we are giving love to others and the way we feel when that love is returned.

I dont think we are supposed to suffer, but rather discover to thrive in the face of challenge and use hope as the steering wheel to guide us through … understanding despite the fact that the light might not be ideal in front of us, its simply around the corner.

Would she have felt the bittersweet minute of seeing me graduate from high school? Would she have held my daughter, her first grandchild, and wept tears of delight knowing she made it?

You can see there is a lifetime of evidence that your world is constantly moving and changing if you turn around. Youll see numerous moments when it might have seemed like things were not going the direction you wanted, but youll likely see an equivalent variety of minutes that led you to exactly what you needed. Use those as evidence that your surprise pleasure might be just around the corner.”

Ive seen pregnancies come when hope had actually left, new relationships be birthed when individuals involved made certain they would never ever feel enjoyed again, new jobs appear out of no place at just the “ideal” time. Ive seen health problems dissipate once people began paying attention to themselves, and moments of delight build in the hearts of those who were specific there was no light left.

I have actually sat with numerous children and grownups while they are deep in their discomfort. I hurt for them, sob for them, and likewise feel expect them. I question aloud what will take place next that we can not see.

The next time you are feeling stuck in a feeling, or what feels like a continuous experience, think about thinking, I wonder what will come of this. I question what charm lies on the other side of this discomfort.

Who understands what her life would have been like if she hung on for another day? I will never ever understand, however I am curious.

Enable for interest. Be open. You never ever know what surprises the day might bring. Perhaps today is the day it all changes. Or possibly tomorrow. You might not know the day, however you can be ready and open for when it arrives.

What will feel various when youre dead versus how you feel right now?”

Youll see lots of moments when it might have felt like things were not going the direction you wanted, however youll likely see an equal number of moments that led you to exactly what you needed. The kind of whole that we feel when weve done something we feel happy of and we reconnect to the love we are made of. The way we feel when we are giving love to others and the way we feel when that love is returned.

The next time you are feeling stuck in a feeling, or what feels like a never-ending experience, think about believing, I question what will come of this.