My Healing Journey After Childhood Abuse (Includes Extensive Resource List)

4-5 years old, most likely in Vermont. TRAUMA FOR THE RESOURCE LIST, PLEASE SCROLL DOWN ***

Michael Pollan– Exploring the Frontiers of Psychedelics|The Tim Ferriss Show # 365.

LONGER LIST OF RELATED PODCAST EPISODES.

What is the Hoffman Process?|Hoffman Institute Foundation.

The Federal Drug Scheduling System, Explained|Vox.

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Hakomi Method|Hakomi Institute.
Imago Relationships.
The Center for Nonviolent Communication.

Debbies first, 2nd, and third looks on this program.

The Underground World of Psychedelics and the Potential of Plant Medicine|NYU.

Jack Kornfield– Finding Freedom, Love, and Joy in the Present|The Tim Ferriss Show # 300.

Jim Dethmer– How to Shift from Victim Consciousness, Reduce Drama, Practice Candor, Be Fully Alive, and More|The Tim Ferriss Show # 434.

RESOURCES, ORGANIZATIONS, AND TOOLS.

All resources pointed out in this episode– and a lot more– are listed below. If you have suggestions, recommendations, or resources that have assisted you, please share in the remarks. We will moderate to remove any bad actors, snark, or other nonsense.
And if you remember just one thing, please remember this: there is light on the other side. I would not have believed this even 5 years ago, but I now consider myself living proof that deep, lasting change is possible.

Heart Rate Variability: A New Way to Track Well-Being|Harvard Health Blog.

Psychedelics– Microdosing, Mind-Enhancing Methods, and More|The Tim Ferriss Show # 377.

Zoloft Uses, Dosage, Side Effects, & & Warnings|Drugs.com.

Frequently Asked Question|The Rape Crisis Center for Children and Adults.

Defining the Rape Kit Backlog|ENDTHEBACKLOG.
I Am Evidence.

Get In Touch With Debbie Millman:.

The Drama of the Gifted Child: The Search for the True Self by Alice Miller.

Books by Debbie Millman.
Happy Heart Foundation.

MDMA-Assisted Psychotherapy|MAPS.

DOCUMENTARIESBOOKS AND SUGGESTED READINGMORE EXTENSIVE BOOK LIST FROM DEBBIE MILLMANRESOURCES, ORGANIZATIONS, AND TOOLSMOST MENTIONED PODCAST EPISODESLONGER LIST OF RELATED PODCAST EPISODES.

SELECTED LINKS FROM THE EPISODE.

Especially great memoirs, all of which have to do with sexual assault and/or rape.

Blake Mycoskie– TOMS, The Hoffman Process, Conscious Uncoupling, and Psychedelics|The Tim Ferriss Show # 446.

The Courage to Heal: A Guide for Women Survivors of Child Sexual Abuse by Ellen Bass and Laura Davis.

Much love to you and yours,.
Tim.
P.S. One essential disclaimer: Debbie and I are not therapists or medical professionals, and we dont play them on the internet. This episode and article are for informational purposes only, and nothing is meant as medical or expert advice in any capacity. Be clever and be safe.

Selective Serotonin Reuptake Inhibitors (SSRIs)|Mayo Clinic.

The Quick-Start Guide to Healing Trauma and Psychological Wounds|Neil Strauss.

MORE EXTENSIVE BOOK LIST FROM DEBBIE MILLMAN.

Cognitive Behavioral Therapy|Mayo Clinic.

Why Ketamine Is the Best Drug on Earth|Vice.

Pavlovs Dogs Study and Pavlovian Conditioning Explained|Simply Psychology.

Paradigms of Ketamine Treatment|MAPS.

Somatic Experiencing: How It Can Help You Process Trauma|Healthline.

Hypermnesia|APA Dictionary of Psychology.
Vipassana Meditation.

Psychedelics– Microdosing, Mind-Enhancing Methods, and More|The Tim Ferriss Show # 377.

Tara Brach on Meditation and Overcoming FOMO (Fear Of Missing Out)|The Tim Ferriss Show # 94.

Advice by Ann Landers|AnnLanders.com.

Fear-Setting: The Most Valuable Exercise I Do Every Month|tim.blog.

Dissociation FAQs|The International Society for the Study of Trauma and Dissociation.

The Apology by Eve Ensler.

Self-Preservation Six|Enneagram Central.

Psychedelic-Assisted Therapy (Resources)|tim.blog.

Psychedelic Science: Magic Mushrooms|MAPS.

Dr. Gabor Maté– New Paradigms, Ayahuasca, and Redefining Addiction|The Tim Ferriss Show # 298.

Parts Work Therapy for Complex PTSD|Dr. Arielle Schwartz.

DOCUMENTARIES.

My dance partner and safeguard in this conversation is my friend Debbie Millman (@debbiemillman). She has actually been named one of the most imaginative individuals in company by Fast Company, and she is the host of Design Matters– a great program and one of the worlds longest running podcasts. She is also Chair of the Masters in Branding Program at the School of Visual Arts and Editorial Director of Print publication, and she has actually worked on style strategy for a few of the worlds largest brands.

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A Meditation on Lovingkindness|Jack Kornfield.

Q&A with Debbie Millman, Designer and Board Member|Joyful Heart Foundation.

A LOT OF MENTIONED PODCAST EPISODES.

Dissociation and Dissociative Disorders|Mental Health America.

Jack Kornfield– Finding Freedom, Love, and Joy in today|The Tim Ferriss Show # 300.

In the Body of the World by Eve Ensler.

Listen to the episode on Apple Podcasts, Spotify, Overcast, Stitcher, Castbox, Google Podcasts, or on your favorite podcast platform.

Novel or Semi-Autobiographical about sexual abuse and/or rape.

Please note that there is some natural overlap with the above list.Self-help (the books that helped me in my twenties).

Dr. Gabor Maté– New Paradigms, Ayahuasca, and Redefining Addiction|The Tim Ferriss Show # 298.

The Method and Madness of Einstein on the Beach|MetroFocus.

The Complete Enneagram: 27 Paths to Greater Self-Knowledge by Beatrice Chestnut.

The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma by Bessel van der Kolk.

” Trip of Compassion”– The Most Compelling Movie Ive Seen In The Last Year|tim.blog.

Some Practical Thoughts on Suicide|tim.blog.

How to Design a Life– Debbie Millman|The Tim Ferriss Show # 214.

Michael Pollan– Exploring the Frontiers of Psychedelics|The Tim Ferriss Show # 365.

What is Internal Family Systems?|, IFS Institute.

Radical Acceptance: Embracing Your Life With the Heart of a Buddha by Tara Brach.

Josh Waitzkin– How to Cram 2 Months of Learning into 1 Day|The Tim Ferriss Show # 375.

Wellbutrin Uses, Dosage, Side Effects, & & Warnings|Drugs.com.

Tara Brach on Meditation and Overcoming FOMO (Fear Of Missing Out)|The Tim Ferriss Show # 94.

Prozac Uses, Dosage, Side Effects, & & Warnings|Drugs.com.

About Holotropic Breathwork|Grof Transpersonal Training.

Centre for Psychedelic Research|Imperial College London.

Waking the Tiger: Healing Trauma by Peter A. Levine and Ann Frederick.

Tobi Lütke– From Snowboard Shop to Billion-Dollar Company|The Tim Ferriss Show # 359.

Know My Name: A Memoir by Chanel Miller.

For me, this is the most essential podcast episode Ive ever published.
In it, I explain the most life-shaping, definitely the most hard, and definitely the most transformative journey of my 43 years on this world. Ive never shared it before.

Facebook.

Jim Dethmer– How to Shift from Victim Consciousness, Reduce Drama, Practice Candor, Be Fully Alive, and More|The Tim Ferriss Show # 434.
The Conscious Leadership Group.
The Enneagram Institute.

More recent book about rape culture.

LIST OF RESOURCES.

What an Ayahuasca Retreat Showed Me about My Life|Vox.

The Worlds Largest Psychedelic Research Center|The Tim Ferriss Show # 385.

The Courage to Heal Workbook: A Guide for Women and Men Survivors of Child Sexual Abuse by Laura Davis.

Sam Harris, Ph.D.– How to Master Your Mind|The Tim Ferriss Show # 342.

I didnt ask Debbie to join me since of her bio. I asked Debbie due to the fact that shes a close confidante, shes an exceptional recruiter, and shes been an extraordinary assistance for me in the last few years, consisting of late-night emergency situation telephone call. Lastly, she and I have actually experienced comparable trauma however have actually taken 2 * really * different courses to recovery utilizing * very * different tools. So, you get a two-for-one deal in this discussion.

BOOKS AND SUGGESTED READING.

7 Positive Changes That Have Come from the #MeToo Movement|Vox.

Related and Recommended.

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A concerning symptom of delving deeper into the trauma of sexual abuse that I had not expected to experience, and some wise words a fellow trauma survivor had to say about the evolutionary miracle of dissociation. How disclosing her experience to this shows audience changed Debbies life, and what she found in the consequences of informing the fact. How checking out the stories of other trauma survivors and learning what they did to include that injury into their own lives has assisted Debbie. Why Debbie is enthusiastic that injury survivors in our society will progressively develop and adopt the tools required to move the shame of their experiences where it belongs, however likewise promotes creating a new vocabulary that replaces words like “victim” and “survivor” with terms that do not paint people who have actually withstood injury as other. The Tim Ferriss Show is one of the most popular podcasts in the world with more than 500 million downloads.

Despite enormous pain, heres why this is a conversation much better put in motion faster rather than later.
From amnesia to hypermnesia– how I started to remember what I d long forced myself to forget.
Where my very first 10-day Vipassana silent retreat took me, and why Im grateful Jack Kornfield was there to ensure I made it back.
Keeping in mind of behaviors that seemed strange and mysterious out of context, but make best sense when memories of the pain and injury theyre suggested to ease resurface.
Excuses I made to delay this conversation, and the realization– whether through breakdown or breakthrough– that choosing not to handle my trauma was simply dealing with it poorly.
A worrying sign of diving deeper into the injury of sexual abuse that I had not expected to experience, and some smart words a fellow injury survivor had to say about the evolutionary miracle of dissociation.
How common is sexual abuse, and why has it been so challenging for victims in our society to look for the aid they require to heal? 21:59
Debbie shares the extent of her own injury that was imposed upon her start at age nine, and how shes tried to deal with it from then to now. 24:44
What is the Joyful Heart Foundation, and how is it working to eradicate the rape kit stockpile that keeps victims from getting justice and enables culprits to stroll totally free? 28:38
How divulging her experience to this shows audience altered Debbies life, and what she discovered in the after-effects of telling the truth.
Repeating the significance of having a guide who can help you through the rough parts of an immersive experience that might dredge up darkness youre not ready to deal with. 37:45
Trauma toolkit resources Ive found especially useful.
How heart rate variability (HRV) training has actually been useful in treating my cardiac hyper-responsiveness to daily stress factors. In other words, its permitting me to better control my physiology in order to change my psychology.
While skeptical of Enneagram personality typing, I do believe it may work in particular scenarios. 46:03
Why ayahuasca may be an overkill treatment for injury in numerous cases, and what may prove to be much better options for the majority of– provided theyre legal where you live. 47:06
What does Debbie suggest to individuals who are trying to work through their trauma possibly for the very first time? Where should they start?
What did Debbies extremely first talk treatment sessions appear like compared to what they look like now, and whats the one specification she has for them to be really reliable– even throughout the COVID-19 pandemic?
While antidepressants might be valuable for many individuals, here are a few of their prospective drawbacks and dangers that patients considering their use ought to understand. 59:34
What we, according to Stan Grof, are really trying to kill when we ponder suicide, and how an opportunity shipment contributed in avoiding my own suicide.
Trauma toolkit resources that Debbie has actually found especially practical. 1:09:29
What I found while looking for a response to the one question that really matters, as communicated by mindfulness instructor Tara Brach: what are you unwilling to feel? 1:14:39
How the person we are today can be better geared up to help recover the injuries of– and nurture– the person we were the other day.
Youre stronger than you provide yourself credit for. Goal for the work that will allow you to retire at the end of the day with, as Debbie says, one notch more hope than embarassment.
Why the seemingly perpetual act of recovery isnt incompleteness– its connection. 1:27:47
How reading the stories of other trauma survivors and discovering what they did to integrate that trauma into their own lives has actually helped Debbie.
Why Debbie is hopeful that trauma survivors in our society will increasingly develop and adopt the tools needed to move the pity of their experiences where it belongs, but likewise promotes producing a brand-new vocabulary that changes words like “victim” and “survivor” with terms that dont paint people who have withstood injury as other. 1:33:37
Debbie and I share ideas on tracking and challenging our wrongdoers– which today has actually become as simple and easy as a Google search. Exists anything to be gotten from looking for such contact? Can true forgiveness dominate our desire for vengeance– and if so, should it? 1:34:39
Is forgiveness more than just letting go of anger? How do you know where the line is between beneficial anger and anger that simply consumes you? What can you do to re-examine how you process and use that anger in a manner thats constructive instead of destructive? 1:44:00
Beyond the expression of anger, how has childhood injury contributed to our other signature behaviors? What have we used to keep us “safe” from what weve been unwilling to feel? 1:56:19
Another point in favor of having other people looped in on what youre going through to act as a support group– and, in turn, being offered to support others who need you to be part of that system for them. 1:59:02
When nearly 75 percent of a lots male buddies Ive talked to about this have communicated their own stories of sexual abuse, is it time for a #HeToo movement? How can most supportively react to women or men who choose to share their experiences with us?
How has understanding and integrating my own injury changed me and my viewpoint on life to this point?
What do I hope listeners take away from this discussion?
Parting thoughts and much appreciation to Debbie for having this discussion– and numerous other late-night conversations like it– with me.

Janna Levin on Extra Dimensions, Time Travel, and How to Overcome Boots in the Face|The Tim Ferriss Show # 445.

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